Wen Hao asked me to call him. I did it and I have to inform the all ventures for the meeting yesterday. All of us came and we were sitting down there, doing nothing, listening to the campfire meeting stuffs that we are not aware and involved in. In the end, my ventures ask me why are we here. I asked Wen Hao why are we here. Wen Hao asked Lian Kwee why are they here. In the end, it turns out that Lian Kwee asked Wen Hao to ask me to call all ventures for the campfire NEXT friday. -_-
Anyway, I bought a Gloss Spray for my plastic models and tried it out on my currently assembling F-18 Hornet. It turns out to be pretty good ! The F-18 was very smooth and it shines. I tried to put the decal on it and then gloss the whole thing again and the effects was great ! The decals actually looks like it was painted on the model itself. This is the first time I have succeeded in assembling such a nice plane and the first time I spent so much time, putting the details on it. I should be completing the model soon. I think.
Well, just start of the year and problems came, BIG ONE. So i guess Fate is really planning to go rough on me this year. This time, I have to solve this problem and by any means necessary. Even if i have to forsake my honor and pride.
With sacrifices, comes rewards. It is just a matter of whether the sacrifice is big and are you willing to do it, just like a transaction. So I have been doing some thinking and have been asking myself.
If you want the reward you want, must you give up things that you consider important to you ? Your happiness ? Your values ? Must you be a puppet to others so that you can get what you want ? In order to get it, must you get it by any means necessary ?
Or ultimately, must you forsake the things that make who you are, destroying the very person that you call "I","Me" and "Myself" ?
To survive, you must bow down to every single one superior to you , stand your ground and defending your own rights and defying everything, treating no one as superior or hating every single thing in the world ?
Sacrificing one for the benefits of others....I have been doing that for years and years. However, this value that was once in me is sealed. Is there really joy in doing that ? Is there anything that is worth to be happy about when you help them and most of the time they don't care or know it. Is it really important to have Trust when people don't give a shit about you ?
If there is really a god up there regardless of religion and if there is a man in need, I am Him. Please heed my prayers, grant me to power to manipulate, strength in order to overcome any obstacles to come.
[ Nothing is true, all is Permitted ]
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